Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in zero_bassist's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006
12:47 pm	Things have been busier than not, everything is going so fast- I got time alone with hizumi last night, it was like the first time we'd ever kissed it'd been so goddam long. Im just glad I wasnt alone again last night. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
10:41 am	well... I dont know if he is trying to ignore and trying to end our relaitionship by not talking, or if hes just working way to much again I havent seen him sinse that time when we went to the mall and he stayed for a few days, maybe I did something wrong. But I tell you, if I didnt. Hizumi is in for an ass kicking. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
5:09 am	At least I know... I know he cares. Being with Hizumi has been an overwhelming experience for me, frustraiting, sad, happy, everything all balled into one. Even though he doesnt say I love you, even though he really doesnt touch me in public. I know he loves me. I dont mind any of the above, I know it's how Hizumi is and it will probably take so much more than me to change his ways. As long as he is with me I dont care, yesterday we went shopping for clothing, face it Karyu, I cant stay in my tour clothing forever, I need some off the stage clothing. I couldnt find anything that fit me right. what happened to mens fashion? Is everyone a tiny-ass piss off? I guess so. Maybe I'm just bigger than everyone else? Its really annoying. Everyone.... GROOW. SO anyways, I was fighting with my shirt, the try-on one. And I couldnt get the button, it just wouldnt come free, but then again if I were a shirt, I wouldnt want to be taken off me either <3 [ok so that was bad] I had to help Hizumi help me take it off. I know, its SO unmanly. I'm kind of a bitch, in the way I like to tease him with out letting him touch me. Changing in front of him and things like that. I like when he wants me. I guess part of me hope he never leaves. I almost let him fuck me in the changing room accept for the fact that I cant keep quiet. So, we went back to the car. and so ended our shopping day, tinted windows are the best thing <3 then again if anyone saw through the windshield, nobody cared. Hizumis eyes. Those dark bewilder eyes. I hope they look at me forever. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 27th, 2006
11:24 pm	... The only thing I can do is wonder what I did wrong..? (Comment on this)
Friday, April 21st, 2006
11:44 pm	cant help it.. Love him... want to see him every day... I Dont want this tension between us in public. Nobody knows? Karyu knows.. I want to see him it hurts to much. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 6th, 2006
2:02 am	hizumi is gone again i thought he would stop being retarded but i was wrong. I practiced at home today. I didnt want to go to the studio. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
6:21 pm	Well I can say hizumi really pissed me off this weekend. He didnt call me for two days, TWO days. Now, how does one react to such a thing? Am I really that bad for the band? I even thought about staying at karyus I though I hit rock bottom. but things are ok now. . . . hizumi your still in trouble. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
1:58 pm	....? I hadnt realized a feeling that I had felt for so long and I had felt it so much until he said it to me. It made me so happy, but then I felt kind of dirty, isnt it wrong to love a man? What would society think? And most of all, what would our fans think.........? I cant not love him. The feeling is to big and to great to simply pretend that I dont, [like I have been] I am so worried that this will bring down the band, and its popularity. We've risen so much that it would be horrible if it we were to come crashing down simply because of me... and my selfish feelings. to want to have him... I hope everything goes ok.. (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
10:57 pm	Hello So it has been some time. Our Global Infectious tour was over awhile ago, I had a really good time and enjoyed myself. American fans are nuts.... Hizumi was almost knocked off the stage at one point. That was in florida, we also did a photosession in Florida. I couldnt even believe the line, they lined up nearly four hours early .... the Jpophouse booth was nice. But aside from that tour. Our new dvd came out recently, I think it is good. We're working on a new single, and lately hizumi has been a bit protective of me? maybe... Karyu's been all over everyone like usual, and tsukasa our quiet little mouse. (Comment on this)